~ * Amber's Poems * ~
Split in two Which to choose Pick me, no me You're a dark side When I'm the light Why the confusion just pick a side I know your troble Then the other is dull How the mind screams out Want to choose such little time So flip a dime 50/50 I got the bad side But isn't that always the way I never seem to have a good day Time goes by but life's the same I still have nothing to claim Hours on end of timeless bends Lift a hand grab a pen Choose your side of split personality!
3-25-01
You must have a charm You like guys maybe to many You sound an alarm The phone rings I hear your cries As problems fill your eyes And it's all about guys How they treat you At least they never beat you But still your heart breaks Another guy leaves out the gate One buy one your teeth begin to grate But you pick up yourself again And find another Will this one hurt you? Or will he finally understand you I guess we will have to find out Or will he walk out But either way my phone will ring and maybe This time your tears will be of joy instead of problemed cries
3-26-01
Far away in a distant place The feeling of being lost in space Hurting inside and losing mind Why can't there be a feeling of kind Distant seas falling rivers Tears of saddness cring times Locked inside the mind Seeing nothing but blank skies Everyone left without good-bye's Even friends with broken lies Sounds of sadness without life Baren land with no light Silent death put up no fight Time is gone the mind fades And the intense feeling of hate Last breaths of silent fate
3-27-01
Grown together And hopefully forever Best friends now together Losing each other Time pulling us apart Sincere amd cruel Nice and Kind One another drawn in time Different paths crossing lines Many directions with many signs Smiles and frowns Lingering around Best friends fading in a little town
3-27-01
Tall Green Grass That lasts and Lasts Through out the day She will lay Flower pedals cover a girl She shines like a pearl Golden eyes open wide She soon rolls to one side Tears of everlasting life For she is Earth's wife Mother Nature forever lives And all she does is give We take for garnet all these things All the plants and animals she brings Earth is dieing and Mother Nature can't stop it The Tears of Everlasting life are still falling All we are doing is stalling Save something that she has made Before we all fade
8-8-01
Spring is full of life A young girl flies her kite Across the sky With her little bow tie Her hair flows through the wind Her soft baby skin Little pink fingernails Waters the grass with her lucky pail Flower petals fill the air She can smell the wonderful pair The joy of life on a spring day Makes life worth the stay
8-8-01
Every step I take I feel like I will break My heart beats slower And I feel even lower The sky seems black What is it that I lack? Friends will hurt me They have the key That kills me from inside Which makes me feel as if I died But I have learned That it can be returned I can live through anything And everything Because I am strong Even thought it feels long I can handle pain And I will always remain
-- 12-21-01 --
I cry to myself I place my life on the shelf And sit in the corner I lost all my honor The tears fall I place my cheek against the wall Hoping to stop the pain It's a gloomy day with rain And I sit there thinking I am wondering Why our world is dying I will keep trying To help but what can I do? Maybe I should ask, what about you? I wonder if I am the only one The only one who cares These are all my tears Where are all of yours? Does it take wars? To understand what's going on What will it take for us to all be gone? Before we realize what we have done Because no one will have won The battle of us We argue and hate one another Weather its mother or brother Friend or foe If you can tell what we owe Then you can help this world Stop the hate So we can escape this fate.
-- 12-21-01 --
The twinkle in the sky So far and high The stars seem to live forever But in life we can endevor The fact we will never understand For the answer is too grand The stars will always be a mystery Throught all our history We wonder and ask Where, how, when, and why But we will never know what's in our sky
-- 12-21-01 --
A flower wilts and becomes the dirt Time forgot all the hurt The pain that was locked inside Right before a soul died The water is reused in many ways This will happen over many days Every time another is born No longer does the soul mourn But now lives again And now the fall of rain Is felt upon its skin This is how its always been A glitch in the way of time The remembering of I'm Again the feeling of déjà vu A time in the past you once knew The soul knows reincarnation If you learn about our creation If you can see a past What you were in the life before last Then you understand The times you roamed this land
-- 12-26-01 --
Look deep in my eyes All you will see is empty skies Maybe a waterfall of tears And a pool of all my fears I may be steady on the outside But on the inside I hide I am this little girl sitting by a lake Watching in ache I see my reflection looking back Wondering what I lack I have a ton of questions I ask But its not an easy task My reflection won't give in It just sits there and grins I finally walk around But there is nothing but barren ground When you finally look just at me You may think I am free But the truth is I'm stuck In my a world with out luck I can't explore I can't even soar I can't see the world around me I just need a key So I can flee From this place to find Myself so I'm not so blind
4-14-2002
I am so confused It's not the feeling of being used But the way we live And how we thrive On a planet that's grown so small Its like a big crowded mall No room to run I'm surprised there is even room for the sun
4-14-02
I sit in the dead of night As the tears fall tonight Why and where are they from? But the felling is so numb I can't place the hurt or pain But it's like the tears of rain Falling down my face If all these emotions I could just erase Crying for no reason Even thought the season Winter, Summer, Spring and Fall I feel like a dieing doll Everything around me is moving What is this all proving
7-15-02
It was another day And I look over in dismay Please try not to cause trouble I won't be the double I'll make sure to be nice So we don't break the ice I want to be happy And I want to make it snappy We need to value each other Instead of taking this further Lets end it now And take this vow I am here to please you I'm not here to tease you I want us to be together I want it to be forever But for now lets take care of the little things And then we will soar with wings
10-4-02
Sit Do it Lay down Completely bound Roll over Come on, rover Sitting in complete command With every demand We call upon mans best friend It's all good in well in the end Beaten in submission It's only they're disposition To retrieve To leave To be everything you want them to be You treat them with love but they are not free They are little oppressed souls Under human controls
10-18-02
The tears begin to roll down You may not even see me around But I am here trying hard Sitting in the middle of my yard Practicing and trying my best My best to be better than the rest To be all that I can be And for this I give a plea Please, Please let me soar Just don't put me on ignore Realize that I can actually be something So that maybe one day I can sing Or maybe act on the big screen I just want to be able to make the scene Only a few ever make it Maybe they don't have enough wit Or maybe its just not right Just not made for the spotlight Hopefully I have what it takes But until the day my heart aches And sit and try for the big part But for now me and dream are apart
12-6-02
I sat and dreamed on my bed. When Crack. The door opened. I tugged and pulled at the covers. Screamed in pain at the thoughts. What opened that door? What evil presence waited at my door? Could it be the living dead? I opened my eyes in fear. A horrid figure filled my eyes. It was nothing but darkness. That filled my mind and room. Hurt and pain that filled my mind. The darkness engulfed my every move. I cried and cried wondering what this emptiness was. But to my surprise it was only a dream.
12-12-02
She stares out the crying window The rain makes my vision go to a blur Wisk away my tears and see a meadow Coldness takes my body into a burr
Forgotten worries, silence speaks sadness Barren walls, crying sky locked in my mind Darkness grows within my evil madness This horrid room I am forever bind
I sit in stillness my eyes gloss over I lost family and all the friends In darkness that of the tunnel gofer And now my life is nothing till it ends
The girl is forever lost in the dark She will forever be in shadows lark
12-16-02
I have been walking about my far back yard observing many things. The birds running across the ground. Ladybugs gathered on lush green leaves. The loan red barn that still stands through out the years. This place would look literary untouched if I hadn't driven my truck out here. Now even after months of weathering and recent rains some tire tracks still remain. Which totally looks misplaced in this yard that for so long has been discarded. Past the main fence that leads back to our housing looks harsh. Compared to the feeling of nature that you get when you turn your back. Now that the sun is setting a darker haze sets upon this field. Which accentuates the harsher vegetation of this place. Which gives lakeside its true natural looks. For this harsher region of the plants are the huge tumbleweeds. That are sparsely placed about. As the sunsets and the blue sky darken a moon is located directly above. I see the birds and hear their beautiful sounds, which adds a tranquil aura. All this in a big yard in the middle of civilization. The sad thing is that I may enjoy this so much. But others see it as an abandoned part of our yard with no meaning. But many also see nothing in nature. They have lost themselves to modernization and forgot about our dieing earth. That they may lose their indulgence to.
3-19-02 Original Revised 12-30-02
Fantasies of Passionate roses Beauty comes in many poses Laying on a bed of rose petals And wearing unique and rare metals Spoiled with chocolates and love The symbolic white dove Will carry romantic winds Whispering through my blinds Soothing my room and air The feeling is grand and rare Making life fulfill every breath No feelings of dark death Only subdued light Bringing a beautiful sight A nice deep plunge Using the cute sponge To spread a refreshing clean That makes you feel like a queen The bath beads and scents Becoming the most luxurious events
1-9-03
The tears fall down my face If all these memories I could just erase The pain destroys my inner soul The emptiness is taking its toll My life flashes before my eyes My breathing slowly dies My heartbeat is faint now And all I ask is how My visions of living are turning into a blur I'm losing memory of who I were My blood is no longer flowing It is now showing My eyes blink one last time It's the end of I'm My eyes are shut The ending thoughts are cut All I feel is intense pain It is so hard to explain Hearing is gone Sight is gone Breathing is gone Movement is gone I only think Sorry for being mean to anyone I wish I could have had more fun I'm sorry for not always being there Hope you know I will always care I will miss every time we talked Every time I walked All the things I will forever miss Just remember this I dreamed I screamed I lived I thrived I was a friend And this is the end Now life is a thing of the past And I have now passed
1-9-03
I have empathy As well as sympathy I believe in understanding Try to be outstanding Live life to the fullest And be the bravest Except people for who they are For you can go far If you want to live a better world Its time to be swirled and twirled To make this place a better place For more than one face Where all types come together And unity is forever Then happiness can be enjoyed Instead of destroyed Join in a hand Then love can expand
1-9-03
Today I'm in school It was just a beginning tool To the rest of my life And one day I will be a wife But for now I am just taking a step And all the friends kept Hopefully more then just in my heart But for now its time to part I am off on a new road Carrying a new load Of new worries and responsibilities And learning new abilities In a new place Moving at a faster pace This is the place of learning To see what you will be earning Entering a place called collage
1-9-03
I sit up in room It's like a personal tomb I cry the tears of forgotten sadness I am a victim of all the madness The hurt stabs me within Where did this all begin Behind locked doors? Under the ocean shores? In twisted nights insanity? The darkest depths of humanity? The questions of the upsetting depression That affects our every expression The who and what of what we are The thing that makes us look to each and every star The little voice deep down That makes us begin to drown In our own sobbing tears The combination of peers and fears over the years The retreating soul wanders through And to the dark corridors it's drew Down twisting stair ways In a horrible upsetting daze Retreating from the mind The soul will now find hard to find Spiraling down the stairs faster In the end only disaster The mind is far from reach The pain of losing speech And the pain of being left alone An eternity in the ear wrenching silent zone
12-22-02
There are things in life that don't seem right but you do them anyways And you let it slide for so many long days The pain inside is something know one can explain And you wonder what exactly is really causing the pain Is it that you are scared of what happens next? There are a million and two new objects That you could do or even explore But you can't see what it would be like to not be where you are anymore So what is it that you are so deathly afraid of? If maybe someone could give you a shove So you could make a second move because first doesn't work It must just be your own personal quirk Something you can't start for yourself So take all the worries and doubts and place them on a shelf Wipe away all the tears of empty pain And now try to let it all drain With a new and better life ahead of you Now you can finally say you grew The chains are broken And you will no longer go unspoken You can breath on your own Because you have grown Once again you can laugh your heart out Cause this is what you have always been about Hug yourself and smile Because in ups and downs life's always worthwhile
3-16-03
The more I think The less I know And when I blink The less I grow I can sit here alone In the darkness of night Waiting for the unknown Convince myself everything is alright But deep down I walk to a pool of fears And wear a saddened frown And I think back on all the years When I was just a little girl And nothing bothered me But now not everything shines like a pearl In fact there is a lot of crying But even though I am still not old There is a creeping fact of dying And so I have been told Not to worry about these things Fill your life with a happy tone But the thought stings That I will one day not be here Or maybe something terrible could happen But everyday my time draws near I am happy but so many things cloud my mind And I am always in deep wonder I'm just waiting for something in life I can find Before it's my time to go under
3-16-03
Have you ever sat down and thought And soon you get caught On many subjects that fill your mind And all these things your yet to find The questions arrive in waves But answers travel through an empty cave Why do you want to know more? But nothing ever washes on shore So you continue to search Which leads to research And as you sip at your cup Your almost about to give up But something gives you a sudden boost And this has introduced A mind willing to open and understand And they realize they can expand That there is more to life then one way And maybe you'll get it one day
3-16-03
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